The following
is from Lisa Marie's MY SPACE Blog. With a heart as loyal and
giving as her daddy, Lisa Marie knew a side of Michael Jackson
that was different than his public personna. There is much still
unknown about MJ, but in Lisa's own words, maybe it will help
some define a troubled soul with a quest for answers, and for
help:
"Years ago
Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.
"I can't recall the exact subject matter but he may have
been questioning me about the circumstances of my Father's Death.....
"At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely
and he stated with an almost calm certainty, 'I am afraid that
I am going to end up like him, the way he did.'....
"I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point
he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact
as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of
that.....
"14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an
ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the
crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the
hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and
the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable
tears.....
"A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but
what I didn't predict was how much it was going to hurt when it
finally happened.....
"The person I failed to help is being transferred right now
to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.....
"All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard
to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell
and right now I am gutted.....
"I am going to say now what I have never said before because
I want the truth out there for once.....
"Our relationship was not 'a sham' as is being reported in
the press. It was an unusual relationship, yes, where two unusual
people who did not live or know a 'Normal life' found a connection,
perhaps with some suspect timing on his part.
Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love
anyone and I loved him very much.....
"I wanted to 'save him' I wanted to save him from the inevitable,
which is what has just happened.....
"His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from
this as well but didn't know how and this was 14 years ago. We
all worried that this would be the outcome then.....
"At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.
....
"He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not
to be underestimated.....
"When he used it for something good, It was the best and
when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.....
"Mediocrity was not a concept that
would even for a second enter Michael Jackson's being or actions.....
"I became very ill
and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him
from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires
and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him. ....
"I was in over my head while trying.....
"I had my children
to care for, I had to make a decision.....
"The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was
to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately
loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.....
"After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him
and what I could have done different, in regret.....
"Then I spent some
angry years at the whole situation.....
"At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.....
"As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion
at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost
play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977
happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted
to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.....
"Any ill experience
or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside
of me along with him.....
"He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as
close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and
years that we had together.....
"I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain,
pressure and turmoil now.....
"He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is
in a better place or will be.....
"I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed
to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.....
"The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his
fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew,
and he was right.....
"I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening....."
Two
months after the death of Michael Jackson, his former wife Lisa
Marie Presley has reason to cheer. Mandrake can disclose that
her 17-year-old son, Benjamin Presley, has been offered a $5 million
deal by Universal, the world's biggest record company, to make
up to five albums. 
With the sad reckoning of the untimely death of one of the greatest
entertainers of our time, we see the real picture through the
eyes of someone who cared about Michael Jackson as a person and
as the troubled soul he, indeed, was. The story saddens yet because
of the considerations that MJ may have been murdered, however,
the similarities to Michael Jackson and 